Me, improving

It is now the end of May, and I am precisely at the weight I was 4-5 months ago. My training was, nicely put, all over the place, my eating habits moderately healthy, my portions much too big.
I just cant seem to get back into my “weightloss-groove”, partially also because I am constantly worried that I will slip back into my unhealthy habits.
So I am working with baby steps now - no goals of a certain weight at a certain date, no long term training plans.
A while ago, I gave up soda, and that has worked pretty well so far. I don’t eat fast food. Ultimately, i would like to have a sugar-free, paleo-like diet, but at the moment it’s not feasible. As my next step, I want to cut out chemicals - so no candy, no prepared meals etc.
I am hopeful that I can get my eating habits under control this way, and feel and look better in the process.

I feel really unattractive, and just not good enough on so many levels

nothing happened, there is no real reason to feel this way

it’s so annoying

about a week ago, I spontaneously decided to see how long I could go with drinking no soda. I don’t drink much anyway, so it wasn’t super hard, and it made me feel good to know that I am taking better care of my body.
today, I felt tired and sluggish at work and somehow got the idea that a small glass of fanta would give me the sugar boost I craved.
well, about three swallows in, I feel queasy and the rest of the drink is definitely going down the drain.

My body really knows what’s up - I guess I should listen to it more!

Yesterday, I prepared an awesome lunch for today - couscous, carrots, cabbage, an egg - and guess where it is now? in the fridge, at home. And I am at work.

I had such good intentions, and now I messed it up with my forgetfulness… darn.